Peace in the Storm
Okay... so the most amazing thing happened last night!
I was stressing about the whole V-day thing and decided to go pray about it in the prayer room.
I wanted so badly to call Brandon and tell him EVERYTHING that I was feeling...
"I don't think it's fair for you to expect me to be okay with this.
"You know I would never do this to you.
"Will your friends EVER become less important to you than I am?"
blah... blah... blah...
I still feel a bit that way... well... a lot that way...
But anyways...
So I went to the prayer room to try to figure out what I was supposed to do...
I prayed.
I cried.
I prayed.
I sat in silence.
I prayed.
So yeah... I've been reading in the book of Ruth for the past couple days... I'll have to write more about that later...
But I'm saying, "Lord, I don't know if I should call him or not. I don't want him to spend V-day with me if he doesn't want to be there. But I also really want him not to go on this trip that weekend. What should I do?"
So I keep reading in Ruth... get to the end of the third chapter (the chapter I happened to be reading yesterday)... and I kid you not... It says...
"Then Naomi said, 'Wait, my daughter, until you find out what happens. For the man will not rest until the matter is settled today.'"
~Ruth 3:18
Is that not amazing??? It was like God totally spoke to ME through the Bible!
It was incredible. So now I'm waiting.
I don't know what's going to happen.
I'm praying that Brandon will choose to stay home without my saying anything... that would be awesome.
But we'll see....
One thing I am confident of... whatever happens, God will be in control...
...and I guess that's all that matters.