Where did it go?
I think I'm longing for something that does not exist.
I'm not sure it ever did exist.
But if it did... if I could just remember a time when it did exist...
Then I could find who I was back then...
And I could become that person again...
And then...
It would be like I remember it.
Or perhaps I remember a dream.
And this is really how it has been all along.
God, I hope not.