The Office Meeting... dun Dun DUUUNNNN
I made the decision on the way to work this morning.
I decided that I will NOT get upset about anything that GB does. I'll let him pitch his fits until he turns blue in the face. I will not let it ruffle me.
And now I'm glad I made that decision...
Because he scheduled an office meeting...
For everybody in the office...
Except me...
I'm not invited.
So as I'm typing this, everybody is in his office, behind a closed door, while I sit out here and wait.
He *says* he'll fill me in on everything they talk about.
I don't really believe him.
Good thing JS is in there. She'll tell me if they say anything about me.
*snort*
I'm not upset... really.
I'm ready to quit this job anyways.
*garsh*
Anyways...
It has been an interesting last couple of days.
First, and most importantly, I saw my baby for the first time. Well, sort of. I saw the sack that the baby is in. He/she is still too small to actually be seen.
I'm only 5 weeks along.
5 weeks, 3 days to be exact.
When the lady told me, I didn't believe her.
I said, "How can I only be 5 weeks!? My tummy is getting so big already!!"
She said, "I don't know, but that's what the computer says."
I said, "Well are there two or three of them in there that are making me this big?"
She said, "Nope, I only see one this time."
Eh, what does she know. She's only a doctor, right?
hehe... just kidding. I am really excited.
B's mom had to start wearing maternity clothes at 2 months, and she felt the "butterfly flutters" in her stomach like I have.
So I'm not totally weird.
Then there is the other news I received...
My cousin K... is also preggo.
And our due dates are probably about a week apart.
I know I should be excited.
I know I should be happy.
And I'm really trying to be.
But, honestly, I know what this means.
Shared baby showers.
Shared baby dedication.
Shared everything.
*hmph*
I don't want to share.
I want to scream, "IT'S MY TURN! You need to be married longer!!! It's not YOUR turn yet! Go away!"
Still, I know that a baby is always a blessing.
I know.
*sigh*
So... I'm kind of in a weird mood this morning.
Honestly, though, I really do have a peace about everything.
I know that if GB decides to let me go, the Lord will provide for our needs.
I'm going to be a mom. That's all that matters right now.
hehe... I asked B if he prayed for the baby...
he said, "of course."
I asked him what he prayed.
He said, "I pray that it is safe...
... and that it is pretty."
*gosh* I love that man.
We got in a fight a couple nights ago. Nothing huge, just a reminder that we still are working on things.
I suppose we will always be working.
But that's the adventure in it, right?
Well... I suppose I should go... although I'm not sure why... it's not like I have anything to do.
I'm up at the front desk, waiting for customers, or phone calls, or something.
What a dull job.
Hehe... I can't wait to leave.
But I know I CAN'T move out of God's timing.
That would be the worst thing.
So I'm waiting.
I just talked with my mom on the phone.
She said, "Maybe they're planning a shower for you."
How naive, was my responsive thought.
Wouldn't they do that on a Tuesday or Thursday when I'm not even in the office?
Hm.
Anyways... I'm off to see if I can eavesdrop.
Great fun. Great fun.